My first memory of my father shows him shuddering and shivering while huddled underneath a blanket, sweat trickling down from his forehead and plopping on his lap, so it looked as though he had wet his pants. I asked my mother why Daddy was so sick, and she told me that the Japanese had hurt him. I was only three and had no idea who or what the Japanese were, but since they had hurt my Daddy, they must be very, very bad.
Dad was wounded badly in the South Pacific jungles during the Second World War. Mom had a drawer full of medals, commendations, and newspaper clippings to prove what a hero he was. His feet, legs and buttocks were riddled with shrapnel, making them prone to infection. And there were the malarial fevers that he got regularly. During the first ten years of my life, he was in and out of the VA Hospital continually.
So strong was my correlation between “bad” and “Japanese” that I used these words interchangeably until I was seven or eight. When I was angry with one of my friends, I called her “Japanese,” which was the worst insult I could think of. If I didn’t want to eat my vegetables at dinner, I would say, “Yuck – these peas are Japanese.” My parents thought my confusion was cute so they told this story over and over. They probably thought it meant that I was a budding literary genius.